Thought of Nothing. . . .

I'm in the library yet again, I should be in the class right now, but I'm not, cause I do not feel like going. This is a little something from my small little heart, wondering. . . . .

I have the slightless idea what is going on with me nowadays. It's been a week plus for now. My mind just playing games with me. I had difficulties. I thought and think and wonder, I really do not know how to deal with it. Sometimes I just want to give up everything, fly to somewhere else, and just relax for one second of my thought.

I had been thinking a lot. I really hope that things will go well. Whenever I see other people, other couples, I see them smiling and whispering to each other. I felt so happy for them as they could live happily just like that. I'm so jealous. I know, exterior it might be very close and friendly or so, but inside there's story behind it. I totally understand, but what I see is, there's something for them to bring them through their relationship. They are walking on a journey TOGETHER. I really envy them. Who should I share my journey with? Who will walk with me?

I have many best and close friends. I really cherish them a lot. I have many other friends that had been and still in my life. I will not forget them, no matter how long how far they are. But this, you are SO close to me, I nearly held your hand and ask for a given chance and forgiveness. I nearly want to hug you because I miss you so much. I nearly look into your eys and cry for joy because you are standing infront of me. I nearly want to bring you away somewhere only two of us, that I could tell you that three big words. . . . But what's the result? I didn't.

This is because I do not know and clear of what was going on. Things changes drastically. I really want to know what is in your thought. I miss you every moment I can. I care every moment I can. But I realise, it's drifting apart. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second, I wish you are beside me. Looking at me with that little bright smile of yours, giving me the look of you are belonging to me, I will be satisfy. Giving me the chance to walk with you in the journey of life. Letting me share with you times of ups and downs. Could I? I really have no idea what else I can do. Your thoughts, just hard to predict. I wish I COULD!!and I really want to!!

It's enough for this post, I have much to say, but my words are due. My time is limited as I have my studies to worry about. I do not know whether you read my post or not, it's not my decision to make. I hope you could read and hopefully you understand it one day. I hope everything will change to a better chapter for me.

Well that's all for now people. A little emo, but yeah, readers, enjoy my deep thoughts.

Ciaoz I MISS YOU!!

*heartz*

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-kimhan-