How do you define a friend? Or close friend? Or best Friend? Or Brothers/Sisters?
I finally understand. Finally I see it so clearly. Thanks for making it clearer.
:)
'.'
-kimhan-
Friday, September 30, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
bored, loned, tired . . . . ~
I'm bored and tired . . . .
I'm sleepy . . .
I feel so lonely suddenly . . . Hmm~ feel like my life is in a mess currently . . . Feel so lonely and useless~
God please help!
What should I do? Help~
Who should I need? Help~
How should I handle? Help~
Where should I go? Help~
Which is the right thing? Help~
When can I 'un-mess' this? Help~
Hmm~
'.'
-kimhan-
I'm sleepy . . .
I feel so lonely suddenly . . . Hmm~ feel like my life is in a mess currently . . . Feel so lonely and useless~
God please help!
What should I do? Help~
Who should I need? Help~
How should I handle? Help~
Where should I go? Help~
Which is the right thing? Help~
When can I 'un-mess' this? Help~
Hmm~
'.'
-kimhan-
Monday, September 12, 2011
People that I start to lose faith and trust in~
As you can see from the title, it is clear that I lose faith and trust in certain people. Of course, I never ever will lose faith in GOD.
The thing is, sometimes in your life, you meet up with with so many people, friends, buddies, sisters brothers, close frens, soulmate, collegues, internet friends, and etc etc.... Promises, bonds, trust, agreements, secrets, sharing, and etc will be form throughout the life.. but some how what happen if any one of them had been breached, or broken or just fail?
Yes I do agree people comes and goes in your life except family, relatives and God (unless there are any exceptional cases). I once heard this: to change a relationship (be it gfbf relationship, marry couple relationship, family relative relationship or even jus friendship), you do not change the other side, but to change yourself and to accept it. I do agree on this so much even I tried it before.
Sometimes it is so difficult for me. I feel so breathless, effortless, tiredness and useless. So much I want to do and I can do, but I can't due to certain reasons, or unforseen circumstances. Sometimes when I have so much thought in my mind, I just want to delete everything, or share it with someone (which I never really do this b4 in my life). I kept thinkin n thinkin n thinkin, sometimes even think until I js give up everything. It may be hard for you all to understand wat im tryin to say, but in fact I also dunno how do i translate this feeling here.
I had so many disappointment, broken promises and even back stabbed & lied, untrusted. It reli affects my self esteem so much. I jus wish I can be strong enough to face everything myself, but sometimes I failed. I always show ntg in my life, bt my feelings actually had been so low and down for a very very very long time...U can ask wat happen, i can answer u, ntg! becos the fact is really ntg. is jus past, current, disappointments and those negative aura's had been affecting me and I nvr able to build myself up since from the start.
Yes I am glad all my besty like EL, TH, IV always there jus spend some time together whether it is eating, drinking. They do not knw hw happy I am jus to laugh together with them. And I really appreciate it. It may seem jus a normal outing or so, bt to me it is something that comforts me all the time. Listening to their talk, stories and laughter is enuf for me. At least I knw I hav someone there for me jus to 'cheer' me everytime.
Work had been jus peaceful and slow for me although i have so much to do.. I hav so much plans in my yet i hav nt hav the power to start anything. I always want to challeng myself everytime, doing things that out of my capabilities... Currently I do not have special dislike or like on my job, jus normal, jus feel like working for the sake of the RM 2k and spend my time doing data entries till my eye goes @.@ . . . .
I reli wish and hope I can start lining up my plans and initiate it soon~
Back to main 'topic', Yes few of my past and current had been reli disappointing to me.
Promises broken, Being backstabbed, being ignored for no reasons or for ur own reason(this is so selfish) n etc. Make me feel like s*it~....but wat the H*ll can i actually do??
Damn it, u have life I have life too. but if my life is not worthy for u to at least keep ur promise, dun bother to start all those s*it lar~
Guys girls, who cares, as long as u r my fren, I cherish you, that's all I can say, if u dun cherish our frenship, relationship, sisterhood brotherhood, or watever, dun start then~!!
O well, i wont explain further and dun bother asking me details about this post as i wont say anything. Im here jus to express my disastifaction in certain ppl, certain incidents.
It is a long post, might bore u....Sorry for that...
Had been single for long...Now is time for me to go out hunt for my partner already!!! HAHAHAHA... jk~
Anyway, tats all for now~ I talk to you all later alright?
'.'
-kimhan-
The thing is, sometimes in your life, you meet up with with so many people, friends, buddies, sisters brothers, close frens, soulmate, collegues, internet friends, and etc etc.... Promises, bonds, trust, agreements, secrets, sharing, and etc will be form throughout the life.. but some how what happen if any one of them had been breached, or broken or just fail?
Yes I do agree people comes and goes in your life except family, relatives and God (unless there are any exceptional cases). I once heard this: to change a relationship (be it gfbf relationship, marry couple relationship, family relative relationship or even jus friendship), you do not change the other side, but to change yourself and to accept it. I do agree on this so much even I tried it before.
Sometimes it is so difficult for me. I feel so breathless, effortless, tiredness and useless. So much I want to do and I can do, but I can't due to certain reasons, or unforseen circumstances. Sometimes when I have so much thought in my mind, I just want to delete everything, or share it with someone (which I never really do this b4 in my life). I kept thinkin n thinkin n thinkin, sometimes even think until I js give up everything. It may be hard for you all to understand wat im tryin to say, but in fact I also dunno how do i translate this feeling here.
I had so many disappointment, broken promises and even back stabbed & lied, untrusted. It reli affects my self esteem so much. I jus wish I can be strong enough to face everything myself, but sometimes I failed. I always show ntg in my life, bt my feelings actually had been so low and down for a very very very long time...U can ask wat happen, i can answer u, ntg! becos the fact is really ntg. is jus past, current, disappointments and those negative aura's had been affecting me and I nvr able to build myself up since from the start.
Yes I am glad all my besty like EL, TH, IV always there jus spend some time together whether it is eating, drinking. They do not knw hw happy I am jus to laugh together with them. And I really appreciate it. It may seem jus a normal outing or so, bt to me it is something that comforts me all the time. Listening to their talk, stories and laughter is enuf for me. At least I knw I hav someone there for me jus to 'cheer' me everytime.
Work had been jus peaceful and slow for me although i have so much to do.. I hav so much plans in my yet i hav nt hav the power to start anything. I always want to challeng myself everytime, doing things that out of my capabilities... Currently I do not have special dislike or like on my job, jus normal, jus feel like working for the sake of the RM 2k and spend my time doing data entries till my eye goes @.@ . . . .
I reli wish and hope I can start lining up my plans and initiate it soon~
Back to main 'topic', Yes few of my past and current had been reli disappointing to me.
Promises broken, Being backstabbed, being ignored for no reasons or for ur own reason(this is so selfish) n etc. Make me feel like s*it~....but wat the H*ll can i actually do??
Damn it, u have life I have life too. but if my life is not worthy for u to at least keep ur promise, dun bother to start all those s*it lar~
Guys girls, who cares, as long as u r my fren, I cherish you, that's all I can say, if u dun cherish our frenship, relationship, sisterhood brotherhood, or watever, dun start then~!!
O well, i wont explain further and dun bother asking me details about this post as i wont say anything. Im here jus to express my disastifaction in certain ppl, certain incidents.
It is a long post, might bore u....Sorry for that...
Had been single for long...Now is time for me to go out hunt for my partner already!!! HAHAHAHA... jk~
Anyway, tats all for now~ I talk to you all later alright?
'.'
-kimhan-
Monday, July 18, 2011
Bull!!
M allgy 2blsht.
Ct d crp n hld ur ars, kp it 2ursf s i blv in krm.
I gs m js antr fllr.
Ur gn b my antr pst.
Dn tk avtg on me. M wk bt nt stpd.
I dcd 2 ct on msf 4ver. GOD wl aws b wt m n i wl ol trst U GOD 1nol.
'.'
-kimhan-
Ct d crp n hld ur ars, kp it 2ursf s i blv in krm.
I gs m js antr fllr.
Ur gn b my antr pst.
Dn tk avtg on me. M wk bt nt stpd.
I dcd 2 ct on msf 4ver. GOD wl aws b wt m n i wl ol trst U GOD 1nol.
'.'
-kimhan-
Crapppzzz
Dnt gve me al des knd of shtz la. . .
M nt js antr 'chce' 4u k. Dnt mk me lke a fckn fool. If u dnt aprcte me dnt js fckn 'ply' me arnd. M nt smne 4u 2 cl wn u nd smne js 2 ps ur tme.
M nt exptn antng bt i js wnt 2b aprcte n b trtd s a frn nt a flr.
Hhs rli, cn ayne, ayne at al 2udrstd me? I cnt rli stnd at al. I 'crd' evy nte, js 2 clm mslf.
Hmm...
'.'
-kimhan-
M nt js antr 'chce' 4u k. Dnt mk me lke a fckn fool. If u dnt aprcte me dnt js fckn 'ply' me arnd. M nt smne 4u 2 cl wn u nd smne js 2 ps ur tme.
M nt exptn antng bt i js wnt 2b aprcte n b trtd s a frn nt a flr.
Hhs rli, cn ayne, ayne at al 2udrstd me? I cnt rli stnd at al. I 'crd' evy nte, js 2 clm mslf.
Hmm...
'.'
-kimhan-
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
400th Post!!
My 400th Post!!
Oh well, things rather dull, normal and quiet these days, these weeks, these months... Not expecting much!!
Just kinda disappointed in few things that really make me feel so uncomfortable...
Was in serious sick just yesterday...Took MC from work and slept throughout just to rest my body and mind....just to get speedy recovery....
Hmm....
Good Luck!!
'.'
-kimhan-
Oh well, things rather dull, normal and quiet these days, these weeks, these months... Not expecting much!!
Just kinda disappointed in few things that really make me feel so uncomfortable...
Was in serious sick just yesterday...Took MC from work and slept throughout just to rest my body and mind....just to get speedy recovery....
Hmm....
Good Luck!!
'.'
-kimhan-
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Importance of promises, bonds, and existence...
Let me ask you to ask yourself a very simple question, what does promises, bonds and existence mean to you?
After thinking about that try linking it back to your self, hoe does it affect yourself and why are these elements important?
Lastly, what can you do??
'.'
-kimhan-
After thinking about that try linking it back to your self, hoe does it affect yourself and why are these elements important?
Lastly, what can you do??
'.'
-kimhan-
Monday, May 16, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Get it Right
What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
'.'
-kimhan-
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
'.'
-kimhan-
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Candles~
The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Could't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
One day
You will wake up
With nothing but you’re sorries
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
'.'
-kimhan-
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Could't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
One day
You will wake up
With nothing but you’re sorries
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
'.'
-kimhan-
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