What am I suppose to do?
I cannot take it anymore. I felt I'm falling each and everytime.
It seems like I cannot do anything tho. . . Hmm. . . Oh well. . .
Things are not what I expected. It's so messy.
Hahaha, let's hope for the best?
Mayb shall stop expecting/dreaming/thinking.
What can I do to mend things? hmmm . .
I really think theres' ntg I can do as it is falling apart.
This? These? That?
Further and further each time.
Life goes on . . .
It makes me feel so low, till my head gonna blow.
For a better and brighter day tmr. . . I hope . .
All I need now is just bring up myself.
Don't worry Be happy. . .
I will be strong, and depend on myself.
Things will be better I'll tell myself. lolz.
I will pull myself together and face the fact.
Oh well, above are kinda random lar. Heeee. . . . Exams are so dead near. . .
I'm scare. . . Lolz. . . My lazy bits keep pulling me back from the books. Damn. Lolz. . .
Oh well, I wish all people happy studying. :)
Anyway, I pray, wish, hope, dream, think and wants the best, the best, and the best!! :)
I MISS U!!
ciaoz
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-kimhan-
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
FiNaLLy?
Finally the MRM is done. Although Jo is editing it now. BUT ITS DONE finally. Been in library the whole day though. Credits to Sue and Jo. AS well as Allen. =)
Anyways I'm still in library writing this post. The rest is taking their break and rest in the cafe. I'm sitting here wondering again? Izit suppose to be like this?
I reli reli felt. . . I dunno how to say lar. . . . F'up?
feel damn shitty lar. . . U, U and U?? haihs. I do understand it anymore. . . I reli dunno. . .
I felt like I'm totally nothing. NOTHING?!
I hav done my part. I even doing parts that I am not suppose to do. I'm not complainin, but isn't giving support better than complaining it?I want the support, but what happens is complains on that very chair. I know what is going around me. I know. I pretend like I do not know anything. But somehow it just gets up to my head and heart. I'm reli hurt and down.
Does anyone actually understands me??
Maybe I always had been a disappoinment all these while. . . I reli dunno what else but to say . . . . . . . . . . sorry?
I felt insecure. Yes believe it, even guys have insecure feelings.
O well, that's all for now tho. I really hav no mood to think about it. hav funs. . . .
'.'
-kimhan-
Anyways I'm still in library writing this post. The rest is taking their break and rest in the cafe. I'm sitting here wondering again? Izit suppose to be like this?
I reli reli felt. . . I dunno how to say lar. . . . F'up?
feel damn shitty lar. . . U, U and U?? haihs. I do understand it anymore. . . I reli dunno. . .
I felt like I'm totally nothing. NOTHING?!
I hav done my part. I even doing parts that I am not suppose to do. I'm not complainin, but isn't giving support better than complaining it?I want the support, but what happens is complains on that very chair. I know what is going around me. I know. I pretend like I do not know anything. But somehow it just gets up to my head and heart. I'm reli hurt and down.
Does anyone actually understands me??
Maybe I always had been a disappoinment all these while. . . I reli dunno what else but to say . . . . . . . . . . sorry?
I felt insecure. Yes believe it, even guys have insecure feelings.
O well, that's all for now tho. I really hav no mood to think about it. hav funs. . . .
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-kimhan-
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Sunday, October 05, 2008
IziT sUpPoSe To bE LiKe tiS?
It's been nites since I ever sleep early. Everyday, for this whole week, I had been sleeping at 3 am, 4 am or even 5 am. Why? I love sleep so much, but just can't find the comfort to sleep. Lolz.
Lying down on the sofa, staring at the tv, not concentrating at all but still cannot get sleepy or tired.
Lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling, with and without the lights on, I just struggles everytime I try to sleep. FLip myself to the right, then to the left, the right then left. . . it continues. . .but I just can't sleep. Why?
When I was struggling this whole week, I did MANY, MUCH, INFINITE, DEEP, SERIOUS, thinking. About what? About past, current and future.
I should be studying, or even doing assignment. But somehow, I do not have the 'momentum' to it. Instead, all these THOUGHTS jam my brain. Lolz.
I have many issues including friendship and studies. We can neglect friendship issues as I don't feel like writing it here. :) About studies, Like I said, I should be studying, Finals coming. And YET I'm not being serious in my studies. I tell myself everytime, I have to work hard, I have to work hard, but Laziness just climb over me. I had done my serious thinking. AND I will start serious revision and study from now. Lolz I hope.
Randomness: I do not know how I feel. Every moment I just wish I can see and talk. I miss dearly as its been a while. I hope for the best. I wish it will be the best too. :)
Aaaa, probably I shouldn't be saying it here, but, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!! WOOT WOOT! lolz. Oh well, not 21 yet. But no longer teen. Unless we pronounce it as twen-teen years old. Hahaha, Lame-nya.
Before I end, randoms:
'Frenship r amazing ppl who accept unconditional luv n care. They recognize each others differences. They trust n believe in each other that they opened up their hearts 2share their dreams, tots and fears. They laugh 2gether in hapiness n share each others tears. Frens r blessings 2 be treasure 4eva.'
'Sometimes things arent d way u hoped they would b, tat's when u hav 2tell urself tat things will get better. It may not be easy, but take each step forward s a challenge. Learn from ur difficult times. Grow in courage n in strength. Keep blivin urself. Stay focus on all u wan ur life 2b. Challenges r part of lifes journey tat will only bring u closer 2wat u dream 2b.'
'Life is full of ppl who will make u laugh, cry, smile till ur face hurts, n so happy tat u think u'll burst. But those who leave their footprints on ur soul r the 1s tat keep ur life goin.'
There are many more I have read. But if I continue writing, there won't be any time for me to finish it. Lolz. There are some kept in my phone too. Lolz.
Oh well, things definately so different nowadays. How it changes so fast? I really do not know. But I really hope it change for the better, not worse. :\
That's all for now, Updates soon. Ciaoz.
'.'
-kimhan-
Lying down on the sofa, staring at the tv, not concentrating at all but still cannot get sleepy or tired.
Lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling, with and without the lights on, I just struggles everytime I try to sleep. FLip myself to the right, then to the left, the right then left. . . it continues. . .but I just can't sleep. Why?
When I was struggling this whole week, I did MANY, MUCH, INFINITE, DEEP, SERIOUS, thinking. About what? About past, current and future.
I should be studying, or even doing assignment. But somehow, I do not have the 'momentum' to it. Instead, all these THOUGHTS jam my brain. Lolz.
I have many issues including friendship and studies. We can neglect friendship issues as I don't feel like writing it here. :) About studies, Like I said, I should be studying, Finals coming. And YET I'm not being serious in my studies. I tell myself everytime, I have to work hard, I have to work hard, but Laziness just climb over me. I had done my serious thinking. AND I will start serious revision and study from now. Lolz I hope.
Randomness: I do not know how I feel. Every moment I just wish I can see and talk. I miss dearly as its been a while. I hope for the best. I wish it will be the best too. :)
Aaaa, probably I shouldn't be saying it here, but, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!! WOOT WOOT! lolz. Oh well, not 21 yet. But no longer teen. Unless we pronounce it as twen-teen years old. Hahaha, Lame-nya.
Before I end, randoms:
'Frenship r amazing ppl who accept unconditional luv n care. They recognize each others differences. They trust n believe in each other that they opened up their hearts 2share their dreams, tots and fears. They laugh 2gether in hapiness n share each others tears. Frens r blessings 2 be treasure 4eva.'
'Sometimes things arent d way u hoped they would b, tat's when u hav 2tell urself tat things will get better. It may not be easy, but take each step forward s a challenge. Learn from ur difficult times. Grow in courage n in strength. Keep blivin urself. Stay focus on all u wan ur life 2b. Challenges r part of lifes journey tat will only bring u closer 2wat u dream 2b.'
'Life is full of ppl who will make u laugh, cry, smile till ur face hurts, n so happy tat u think u'll burst. But those who leave their footprints on ur soul r the 1s tat keep ur life goin.'
There are many more I have read. But if I continue writing, there won't be any time for me to finish it. Lolz. There are some kept in my phone too. Lolz.
Oh well, things definately so different nowadays. How it changes so fast? I really do not know. But I really hope it change for the better, not worse. :\
That's all for now, Updates soon. Ciaoz.
'.'
-kimhan-
Friday, October 03, 2008
ABBA Collection!!
Woot woot. . . Mamma Mia is a good show, at least for me it is. Because its so. . . how to say ar, cheerful? Happy? Melodi-ish? Lolz, Lolz. . . I knew how to sing half of their songs in the cinema when watching man. Lolz. .
These are the popular songs!!
Mamma Mia
I Have A Dream
Take A Chance On Me
Dancing Queen
Money Money Money
Super Trouper
Knowing Me Knowing You
Gimme Gimme Gimme
Chiquitita
Lay All Your Love On Me
S.O.S
Honey Honey
12 songs here. ABBA has TOO many songs. . lolz. . . But these are the songs that are more well-known, at least to me, and I like. Lolz. Go download the songs and hear!! woot woot.
Oh well, I'm stoning at home. . . Should BE doing assignment or even study for FINALS!! but look wat Am I doing wei. . . Lolz.
O well, that's all for now. Ciaoz!! :]
'.'
-kimhan-
These are the popular songs!!
Mamma Mia
I Have A Dream
Take A Chance On Me
Dancing Queen
Money Money Money
Super Trouper
Knowing Me Knowing You
Gimme Gimme Gimme
Chiquitita
Lay All Your Love On Me
S.O.S
Honey Honey
12 songs here. ABBA has TOO many songs. . lolz. . . But these are the songs that are more well-known, at least to me, and I like. Lolz. Go download the songs and hear!! woot woot.
Oh well, I'm stoning at home. . . Should BE doing assignment or even study for FINALS!! but look wat Am I doing wei. . . Lolz.
O well, that's all for now. Ciaoz!! :]
'.'
-kimhan-
Thursday, September 25, 2008
What?! Heee, Wee Hours Update!!
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O well, since am blogging, I blog a little randomness lar. . lol . .
Sem break is next week!! One week, damn!! Can't see my friens for a week man. Not all of cos but most of it. Damn gonna miss them. Lolz. Altho jus one week. Lolz.
Today's K's Birthday wei. Sorry didn't celebrate with U well. Promise to 'pay' back bro. Alright.
Gonna get stress soon. Exam period coming. Cannot afford to slack di.
Life changes as people changes. Things around changes too as the environment changes. (It's kinda random tho this line, Lolz)
Tmr going futsal with Bryan and his gang. Hopefully can play lar. Dennis ciaoz to Aussie, Miss him man. Used to play futsal with him and Bryan's gang together. Sifu(Andrew), Let's play futsal alright!
Michie Mc, Let the moodiness goes away. Woot Woot. Rmb all the lame jokes. Lolz. SMILE! Hugz. Heeee. . . .
WC, another night, it makes it forth or fifth night in a row. . :[ Bluek, Winkz*
Sue, I was away jus now, finding for food. Sorry. Heee. Sleep well k. Srry. Hugs.
Joanna, Going off soon. Have dinner or a day out b4 you leave la. Alright. Gonna miss U. Hugz.
Tyew, Let's ROCK the futsal on Friday. woot.
Michie W, prob half asleep di, roar. When go Ramadhan Bazaar? October 1st Hari Raya di. . Lolz.
Alvin, Where U MIA di? Editor then forget me di lar? I mean US lar? Heeee.
Chee Hoe, Keegan, Shereen, Miao. . . . lolz
Zen, Train your shots lar. Lolz
Grace, Birthday coming. Happy Bday in Advance. Heeee.
Stacy, Share wit me ok? heeee.
Elaine T, Don't drive so fast k!? Becareful!! Heeee.
Ben Siew's bday coming soon too. Two days difference from me. Lolz. Celebrate together ok?
Miss Primary schoolmates, people like Alice and Pui Yee. Miss College mates(COPOT).
High school mates, Miss You all!! School mates, class mates, football mates, Karate mates, handball mates, volley ball mates, etc. Especially the Gay Clanz.
(Note: Gay Clan SJ consists of people like Keang Thai, Alex, Calvin, Ching Eu, Zhen Linn, Ben, Chen Hwa, Colin, Dik Yang, Jon, Chew, Eddy, and etc)(Girls included in GCSJ: Chee Ling, Mel, Kwan Yee, Rowe, and etc.)
(Classmates from Form 1 to Form 5 Classes especially Baktianz.)
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(THE HIGH SCHOOL GAY CLAN SJ)
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( 5 Bakti Class)
(College Mates)
(Uni Mates)
(The Fives)
Many more Uni Pict are not uploaded yet. I need time wei. Lolz. Including people like Andrew, Mich Mc, Ben Siew, K, SMILE members, Student Council Members and etc etc. . . .Lolz, coming SOON! ALRight? I only Upload once in a while and when I can't sleep, So you all please pray that I can't sleep. Lolz. NOT!!
Hahaha, I just realise my post DAMN random wei. Lolz. That's what happen if I can't SLEEP.
K lar, I thnk tat's all for now, Enjoy!! Winkz*
(The format is a little messy, I do not know why. Been trying whole night fixing it. Srry for the Inconvenience. Hope u all enjoy.)
'.'
-kimhan-
Friday, September 19, 2008
DoTtty . . .
Heyz. . .
A little short post I shall say here. . . IMC assignment finally over. . MRM assignment 1 Redo finally done. . . IFM assignment 2 due coming Monday MRM assignment 2 due Friday . . .Hopefully there an extention tho. . . .
Well it's been a very stressful week for students in Monash especially Business School. . .Assignments are every now and then, there's no stop to it. . . O well what the heck, Monash Uni life. . . So people, WOOT WOOT. . .work hard. . dun be like me. . lazy bum . .lol . . .
Anyway, been wondering myself again . . How nice if dreams really come true?! lol RIGHT?? lol .
Exams are near, must start to study di . . .weee. . . hopefully. .
IMC MCQ test after the short one week break . . .darn . .
I read these two lines, it's reli meaningful . . .heee. . . . I'll share it wit U!!
'Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!! '
'Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love. '
hmmm, I do not know what to expect or wait for anymore. . .things just right in front of my eyes. . . things happen . . . wat to do wat to do . .??
Every time every nite. . . I just sit there and wonder. . . staring at the ceiling, looking at my phone . . . think back what I have said and done. . Happy and moody, cheerful and miserable. . everything just struck my mind. . . . heee. . . O well, sometimes there's one word to describe it, STONE. . . LOL. . .
I havent been sleeping very well lately. . .Almost everyday after 3 only will be sleepy. But even i'm sleepy, i can't doze off. . .that makes me kinda go into dream land around 4 plus. . .this had been repeating. . . which is really kinda suffereing for me. . . o well, I'll try my best to get on wit it lar. . heeeee *winkz*
That's all, this post suppose to be up a while ago, but because i wasn't able to finish it, that's why i delayed posting up this post. Heeeee now it's up, enjoy. Sorry for the delay*!!
'.'
-kimhan-
A little short post I shall say here. . . IMC assignment finally over. . MRM assignment 1 Redo finally done. . . IFM assignment 2 due coming Monday MRM assignment 2 due Friday . . .Hopefully there an extention tho. . . .
Well it's been a very stressful week for students in Monash especially Business School. . .Assignments are every now and then, there's no stop to it. . . O well what the heck, Monash Uni life. . . So people, WOOT WOOT. . .work hard. . dun be like me. . lazy bum . .lol . . .
Anyway, been wondering myself again . . How nice if dreams really come true?! lol RIGHT?? lol .
Exams are near, must start to study di . . .weee. . . hopefully. .
IMC MCQ test after the short one week break . . .darn . .
I read these two lines, it's reli meaningful . . .heee. . . . I'll share it wit U!!
'Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!! '
'Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love. '
hmmm, I do not know what to expect or wait for anymore. . .things just right in front of my eyes. . . things happen . . . wat to do wat to do . .??
Every time every nite. . . I just sit there and wonder. . . staring at the ceiling, looking at my phone . . . think back what I have said and done. . Happy and moody, cheerful and miserable. . everything just struck my mind. . . . heee. . . O well, sometimes there's one word to describe it, STONE. . . LOL. . .
I havent been sleeping very well lately. . .Almost everyday after 3 only will be sleepy. But even i'm sleepy, i can't doze off. . .that makes me kinda go into dream land around 4 plus. . .this had been repeating. . . which is really kinda suffereing for me. . . o well, I'll try my best to get on wit it lar. . heeeee *winkz*
That's all, this post suppose to be up a while ago, but because i wasn't able to finish it, that's why i delayed posting up this post. Heeeee now it's up, enjoy. Sorry for the delay*!!
'.'
-kimhan-
Saturday, September 13, 2008
FInally...
Wow. . it's reli been a roller coster ride for me these two weeks. . . .
Finally election is over. . . May the best candidates win alrite :)
Well well, it's been reli exhausted, Mind burning, tired, and energy draining. . .I felt sick the other day right before election over. That was my WORST feeling ever as I could not even talk and walk . . .luckily it's gone now. . Will update more later. . .
I'm jus here to say THANK YOU and THank GOD for everything. . I will like to THANK all my besty, T-U, WC, Sue, Michie, Alvin and etc etc, Thanks Smiley, Scrutinizers, campaigners. . . Thank my SIfu . . .Thanks Ben, Thanks Mich Mc . .thanks EVERYONE. . .support or no . .thanks for being there!!!hee. . . Thanks to people who voted and exercised their voting rites in the election, be it voted for me or not, it's ok. . .but thanks. . . It makes the election runs well and finally done. . . Woot woot. . .
Anyway, i'll update later, this is jus a brief post ya. . heeheheh . . .Ciaoz people . . Tiredness. . .Downess. . .
'.'
-kimhan-
Finally election is over. . . May the best candidates win alrite :)
Well well, it's been reli exhausted, Mind burning, tired, and energy draining. . .I felt sick the other day right before election over. That was my WORST feeling ever as I could not even talk and walk . . .luckily it's gone now. . Will update more later. . .
I'm jus here to say THANK YOU and THank GOD for everything. . I will like to THANK all my besty, T-U, WC, Sue, Michie, Alvin and etc etc, Thanks Smiley, Scrutinizers, campaigners. . . Thank my SIfu . . .Thanks Ben, Thanks Mich Mc . .thanks EVERYONE. . .support or no . .thanks for being there!!!hee. . . Thanks to people who voted and exercised their voting rites in the election, be it voted for me or not, it's ok. . .but thanks. . . It makes the election runs well and finally done. . . Woot woot. . .
Anyway, i'll update later, this is jus a brief post ya. . heeheheh . . .Ciaoz people . . Tiredness. . .Downess. . .
'.'
-kimhan-
Monday, September 08, 2008
Vote Vote. . .
Well, election is coming up though . . heee. . .People go vote and choose wisely!! Every votes count!! Heee. . .
This applies to Monash Students. . . Hee. . the future is in Ur hand!! Woot woot. . :]
'.'
-kimhan-
This applies to Monash Students. . . Hee. . the future is in Ur hand!! Woot woot. . :]
'.'
-kimhan-
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