New . . . .

hmmm . . . Today, and probably few more hours time, it's gonna be September di. I already planned for my September socalled 'resolution'. I'm gonna work hard and catch up all my work man . . studies lar mainly of cos!!. . .damn i am so way bak . .

Today I cleared my table, trying to wipe the inches thick of dust-ball around. . .damn sneezing again . . lol . . it takes me hours to figure how should i arrange my table man. . lol . .yet i had not done arranging my closet and cupboard. . .Not gonna do so soon, but closet i'll. . . PLannin to buy new one tho!!heee. . .

MonashBall was ytd!!woohoo . It was kinda fun for me, as the food was alright as well as the performance. I dun see much performances because i was busy walking around, hanging around with frens, doing my security work (as that's my job for going there), taking pictures and chat chat chat. . lol . .after that went MOS. . WOOHOO. .it's PACKED man . .damn!! there's like TONNES of people. . . lining up!! but with Monash already booked, we had our priorities!! Security team went in and enjoy drinking with the rest of Monashians!! loL . . DAmn cool man . . lol . . Went home reach home around 5 plus. Cos i drank a little too much, thats why unable to drive back so soon . . lol . . luckily not drunk!!lol . .

Well, at least the first stage of assignments and test were over. . .a little disappointed, but what could be done? That' is why i need to bucked up starting from september!! U will now see the nerdy Kimhan HOPEFULLY hahahah. . .

That's all for now larr. .nothing much tho . . . .will update more detailed next!!
ciaoz

'.'

-kimhan-

weee. . .back . .

Hey people, LOL well, it's been kinda emo post for the last almost WHOLE month. . .I decided to go up di . . hee smile smile. . . GOing to be hyper and lame from now on.!!lol . .

Well, for the past post, let's just take it as something that came over to my life. It's been into my life ok? and Its part of my life. . . The most important thing is that I move on with my life. . rite?

For the past few days I'm kinda busy. . working only. . . lol fun working with new people and friends. . lol . . And i found out so many funny and new things like helium gasses, people's weird name, cheering and etc etc. . lol . .so fun lar. . .hope could work with the same atmosphere wei . .can laugh non-stop . .rite Ice Kimo CREW? lol . . . Sejuk SEJUK!!!lol . . .
People involve is like 20 plus people. . i mean those who helped out back stage, registration, phamplets, cheering and etc. . lol . . Well, overall it was FUN!!!! hahah. . .

Oh yeah, Did anyone went into a bar sit down almost one hour without ordering anything and walk out??? LOL!!! People like me, Michelle, Andrew, Elaine, Adam, Melissa, Angie, Navin and Niven did. . lol . .FUNNY man, went into republic, planning to chill. . .after one hour didn't order, end up in MAMAK!!!lol . . .Shisha. . lol . .

Make new friends, fun knowing them. . .hope to see them soon . . heee. . .smile smileee=)) so happy lar me. . .lol . . Learn new words and sentence somemore. . . 10,000, is BELONG TO YOUUUUUU. . . lol . . .

well I was in rush after work. Must finish my IFM assignment. . lol nvr even started yet. . . went home striaght head to comp to finish my assignment. . .total of 7 hours finishing 12 pages. . damn cool rite? . . lol then i kinda screw up my test lar actually cos i didn't read anything. . .

Things around me had been a mixing like ABC. . . There's ups on the right, there's down on the left, there's smile on my back and there's cry in front of me. . .there's bright above, and there's dark below. . .it's kinda random. . Wat i'm trying to say is, it's been EVERYTHING around me. . .heee. . .

Well, this post is kinda not organize larr, because too hyper. .telling Mich some lame jokes and chatting with other frens when i NEED to do my presentation . . lol . .

K lar tat's all for now. .See ya all soon alrite?? Hugs. . .

'.'

-kimhan-

Random mandarin post. . . . =)

A little short post in mandarin. . .for people who dunno how to read, I do not know how to explain!!heee. . . : )

想成為你的專屬，守候在你身旁，看著你，喜怒悲傷想成為你的天使，伴隨在你心裡，守護你，一路歸航 . . . . . .

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人生的光彩在哪裡？
早上醒來，光彩在臉上，充滿笑容的迎接未來。到了中午，光彩在腰上，挺直腰桿的活在當下。到了晚上，光彩在腳上，腳踏實地的做好自己。原來人生也很簡單，只要能懂得「珍惜、知足、感恩」你就擁有了生命的光彩. . . . .

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原來獲得賞識很簡單，養成好習慣就可以了。

原來出人頭地很簡單，吃點虧就可以了。

原來要擁有漂亮很簡單，只要不生氣就可以了。

原來培養孩子很簡單，讓他吃點苦頭就可以了。

原來尋找成功的方法很簡單，從一數到十不要跳過就可以了。

原來保持明亮的方法很簡單，只要常常更換就可以了 。

原來掌握命運的方法很簡單，遠離懶惰就可以了。

原來脫離沉重的負荷很簡單，放棄固執成見就可以了。

原來當天使很簡單，只要實實在在去做就可以了。

原來要變成神很簡單，只要真心付出就可以了。

原來快樂很簡單，擁有少一點就可以了。

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-kimhan-

Rain . . . . . bow. . . .

It's raining now, it's 940am as I'm at home because class is cancelled. . .

I wonder, when will the rain stop. . . The rain represents dull, sad, moody, sleepy day. . . but without the rain, plants will not grow, flower will not be pretty, land will be dry, people will be craving for water and etc. . . So be happy when there's rain because it might not be good at the outlook, but there's a reasons behind everything. . . . After the rain, sun will shine, rainbow will be bright wil pretty colours, people will be refreshing, work will start, day has come. . . . .

Isn't this best represents life? When a person is facing troubles, obstacle, it's just like the rain as people could not do much during rain outside. But in this obstacles, troubles, moody, sad or whatever, it's part of the life. . . Sun comes out after rain, shows that there is always a brighter day some how. Rainbow comes out which shows that many things could be done for a better life after the rain. By making it meaningful, this rain, currently, makes me think back a lot of issues including current wan. . . But what possibly could I been doing? I wonder. . .

I hope there will be a brighter day soon. . . Life moves on every minutes every seconds. . .As I wish there will be a rainbow for you and for me. . . . I MISS YOU!!!!

Anyways, assignment duing soon di . . OMG, I'm so like LOST?? Well, Trade Finance mid-term test is next week, and IFM assignment due next week too!! Same day which is coming Monday. My goodness. . . . Then this week is Marketing Research assignment due. . damn damn . . I dun even know much to do . . I'll try tho . . heee. . . .

This weekend I'll be working in Pyramid. . Yes, Work AGAIN. . LOl. . .Clarks warehouse sale just finish as it was a fun job to take altho there are so many things to be done. . damn, the crowd in the sale was INSANE!!! Pushing and all. . .LOL . . Well, its over tho!!heee. . . . This week will be working in Pyramid for Daily Fresh, as there will be an event there. Some competition thing, so I'll be there to help out. . . heee. . .$$$$$. . .I NEED MORE!!! lol . . .

Yeah, I think that's all for now. . . Will update more in coming time =)
*am waiting for you every moment, waiting for your msg every time, as I miss U deeply. . . *
Ciaoz. . .

'.'

-kimhan-

Miss U

I MISS YOU EVERY MOMENT I CAN!!

'.'

-kimhan-

'Polluted Air'

SUper RaAnnDoMMM pOosttT. . .

I'm breathing reli hard nowadays . .
Everynight, I'm suffering, trying to breath. . .
I just felt like I'm having 'asma'. . .*touch wood*
I felt like I got strangled. . .
I'm suffocating every moment. .
The air is so 'polluted'. . .
Every day every night, it's in my head my heart. . .
I'm taking every moment deep down inside me. . .
Days are counting. . .
Yet I'm not thinking. . . .
All I'm getting, is just suffering myself. . .
Everything is not anything,
& anything is not everything. . .
Being myself, facing difficult obstacle. . .
I know, I have to face . . .
but. . . . I'm suffocating. . . . . .
help?

:(

'.'

-kimhan-

Starry Starry Night - Don Mclean

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

'.'

-kimhan-

Thought of Nothing. . . .

I'm in the library yet again, I should be in the class right now, but I'm not, cause I do not feel like going. This is a little something from my small little heart, wondering. . . . .

I have the slightless idea what is going on with me nowadays. It's been a week plus for now. My mind just playing games with me. I had difficulties. I thought and think and wonder, I really do not know how to deal with it. Sometimes I just want to give up everything, fly to somewhere else, and just relax for one second of my thought.

I had been thinking a lot. I really hope that things will go well. Whenever I see other people, other couples, I see them smiling and whispering to each other. I felt so happy for them as they could live happily just like that. I'm so jealous. I know, exterior it might be very close and friendly or so, but inside there's story behind it. I totally understand, but what I see is, there's something for them to bring them through their relationship. They are walking on a journey TOGETHER. I really envy them. Who should I share my journey with? Who will walk with me?

I have many best and close friends. I really cherish them a lot. I have many other friends that had been and still in my life. I will not forget them, no matter how long how far they are. But this, you are SO close to me, I nearly held your hand and ask for a given chance and forgiveness. I nearly want to hug you because I miss you so much. I nearly look into your eys and cry for joy because you are standing infront of me. I nearly want to bring you away somewhere only two of us, that I could tell you that three big words. . . . But what's the result? I didn't.

This is because I do not know and clear of what was going on. Things changes drastically. I really want to know what is in your thought. I miss you every moment I can. I care every moment I can. But I realise, it's drifting apart. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second, I wish you are beside me. Looking at me with that little bright smile of yours, giving me the look of you are belonging to me, I will be satisfy. Giving me the chance to walk with you in the journey of life. Letting me share with you times of ups and downs. Could I? I really have no idea what else I can do. Your thoughts, just hard to predict. I wish I COULD!!and I really want to!!

It's enough for this post, I have much to say, but my words are due. My time is limited as I have my studies to worry about. I do not know whether you read my post or not, it's not my decision to make. I hope you could read and hopefully you understand it one day. I hope everything will change to a better chapter for me.

Well that's all for now people. A little emo, but yeah, readers, enjoy my deep thoughts.

Ciaoz I MISS YOU!!

*heartz*

'.'

-kimhan-

......

I'm in the library now, trying to do my assignment as I'm waiting for my class to come. . . . ..

Well, I'm wondering, is 'it' the one? Will I succeed? Everytime I just don't wanna think about it, but it just makes me more curious everytime. I'm wondering and wondering. . . How should I deal with it? What should I do? How can I do? and when is the RIGHT time?? My feeling jus ups and downs, I really lost in mid air, do not know which direction should I go. I can't get hold of myself. I always hope for the better. I always wants it better. I want to improve. . . I hope I can. . .but what can I do. . .there's no result. . .no ntg. . . .what's the thought?????

hmmm. . . . I miss the time. . . I miss 'it' . . . I miss u!!

Well, i dun wanna say more, i'm going to continue my work . . . .TTYL again ya!! :)

'.'

-kimhan-

Weee~

Hmmm, at this hour, what am I doing again? Lol. . . . A little randomness. . .heee. . .

Well, I had been cracking my head for the IMC assignment, now I really do not know how to continue, as I have nutz idea anymore. I think I'll leave it aside though. . . . .hehehehe. . Will be carrying on to try to do my Trade finance tut work. . . After that will start my IFM assignment. . .

Well You all must be wondering I'm crazy, rather do hw than sleep . .lol . .YEA i'm crazy!! Cos i CAN'T SLEEP. . .heeee. . . .

It's been a very moody, sad day for me today. Everything just don't go right. . . I do not know how to deal with it anymore. I rather keeping myself busy than thinking of it. I'm tired, I'm reli tired. What do I deserve more? I'm not asking extra. . .Simple will do . . It's hard for me to cope. . .I'm panicking, I'm lost. . . How how HOW???Eesh . . . .

hmmm. . . now heading back under the light and continue the hard work . . :)

I miss . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

ttyl!

'.'

-kimhan-

Down and Under. . . .

WARNING: Most might not understand the purpose of this, Please be patient. :)

How should I start. After reading, After reasoning it out, After deep thinking, After waiting. . . What was ALL that ABOUT?

I guess I never be as good, as correct, as perfect. Whatever I done, or whatever I did not do, it seems ok at the start, but it turn out bad to worse later on. I do not know how to deal with it. I really do not know. I am not expecting a apology, or a thank you, or anything but expecting things will be better. I know I'm no good in words, so that is why I do not know how to say much but the same thing. Everyone has the past. I have my bitter past. I always look for a brighter day. Maybe you are right. Maybe I'm just stupid enough to think more. It is always hard for me to type posts like these. Most of the time, I really do not know what do I want to say more but just putting my heart there and let everyone see once and for all.

I'm not blaming, I'm not sulking, I'm not angry. I'm just filled with regrets, disappointment, sadness and I do not know what else. Argh. I really do not know how to say on. My fingers are trembling. My heart is just, sinking. By reading the words, the messages, the sentences typed in blog or sms, how could I ever bring myself up? Reading it makes me even sad. I know I do not understand sometimes, Maybe my words hurt sometimes I'm sorry. But I TOO have feelings. Things you do, how you dealing with it, how you telling it expressing it to me, how you typed it, how could I ever forget? Why am I reacting such? Maybe because. . . . .

Because I CARE . . . .

endz~

'.'

-kimhan-

Learned . . .

From my last post, U can see that I talk a little about the drama series I watch. . . Well, from that, I realise something tat a life might face . . .

Life is Precious.

As time passes,

It will never turn back.

You only live once ONCE.

Cherish life with all.

Be it good, or bad,

Make life the priority.

We never know what will happen,

Even for the very next second you are living.

Who will be able to know?

Loves need sacrifice.

Be it positive or negative.

As long as you do not betray.

Make the love meaningful.

Not make it worse by having affair.

Once know there is,

It will never be glued together again.

Truth always hurt,

But it always the best way to gain.

So choose.

....

Well this post suppose to be up few days ago, but due to my stupid internet connection, I can't even log in. . .heee. . . so i had forgotten half of my 'inspiration' and words to put it into this blog. . .

anyways that's all for now, try and grab the drama and watch. It is a 40 epi drama!! =)

'.'

-kimhan-

wow. . .

hahaha. . . I dun think anyone will expected me to blog in this wee hour rite?lol . . .

If you wander off to far,
My love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
Lost and all alone.
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.

If the bright light blind your eyes,
My love will get you home.
If your trouble break strive,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
Lost and all alone.
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed,
My love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
Lost and all alone.
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home. . . . .

'HEART of GREED', finally finish . . .

My eyes were wet throughout the series. I'm REALLY touched with the series.

Love, Hate, Argue, Quarrel, Dead. . . . etc. . . damn . . .

I dunno whether u all know wat i'm talking, but i'm reli reli touched by the series. . I dunno how to say tho . . .

Tmr my class is at nine morning, and YET i'm not asleep. . .Hero rite me?Hee. . . . so cold. . . =)

k lar, logging off now at 4.51 am. . hehehe. . ciaoz. . miss ya!!=)

'.'

-kimhan-

Dotz. . .

I CAN'T SLEEP!!!! And this is what I do!!! Hate my internet connection . . . . . DOtz. . . .

Arghhh. . . .

'.'

-kimhan-

Mika - Happy Ending

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

'.'

-kimhan-

Muse - Time is Running Out

I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

You will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

'.'

-kimhan-

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch closer dear
and I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!

'.'

-kimhan-