Seasons Greetings. . . .

Woot woot. . .it's the end of the year!!

SEASON's GREETINGS!!!

MERRY JOLLY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY WONDERFUL NEW YEAR!!!

MAY ALL THE BEST THINGS HAPPEN IN 2009!!

Try visiting the malls and see all their decos. Incredible!!! One Utama, the Curve and etc. . Damn it's AWESOME-ness. . . .lolz. . .go and see and experience how ppl celebrate this wonderful season!! woot woot!!

WOOT WOOT!!!!!

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-kimhan-

long Lostttttt. . . .

O well o well, here I am again after a long disappearance. Anyway, I'm in Monash Library now. My house connection is THAT bad till I can't online often. It often disconnect every few minutes and it irratates me. . . darn . . .

Anyways, Summer class started!! Every Tuesday and Thursday. . . Summer class arr. . . ok lar. . ntg much, jus express lor. . .lol . .
besides, starting plannings for next years events. . .Council mar. . roar. . wat to do . . .heeee. . . wanna help me??

Dunno what else to say here. . . . cos currently no motivation to update tho . . . lol . . all i need is $$$$ hahahaha. . . . anyone wanna donate to me? lolz. . .

k lar, when i have the motivation, i will update a detailed wan ok?! =) hugs ppl

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-kimhan-

Summer. . .

Summer class is starting soon!!! woot woot. . .

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-kimhan-

back . . .

I Just came back from work from Langkawi. Four days Three Nights NON-STOP working. . .super exhausted. . . Will continue tmr. . need to wash my clothes tmr too . .hmm . . .BRB. . hugs ppl...

mIss ya ppL!!

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-kimhan-

ROar. . .

HOlidaY. . .woot woot. . .

Went Barcelona that day, suppose to go MOS but too exp lar. Heee, so mar head to Barcelona lor.
Went wit Michie, Cheese, YeeLeng, Angie, Elaine & her bf, B, Joshua, Alvin n Philip. Not that bad lor i think tat nite. . . 3 bottles like 50 per person only. . woot woot. . damn nice. I guess everyone have their satisfaction KUA. . . heee. . .

Went foos with Michie, then met Joshua and YeeLeng there, as well as ben tat day in AC, went yum char lor. .eat burger 'dadah'!! hahah. . .

Ntg much to updates lar actually, went do my shopping and groceries hunting ytd wit Alvin, Met Yung Lin there. Lol so three of us jus walk lor. Then Angie Elaine, her bf, Frank n Tentze also there(srry dunno hw to spell ur name! lolz), so coincidently rite? lolz. .

let me see what else, o, went help Bravo work here and there wrap here and there before going to Langkawi lor. . heee... two more days and i'm ofF!!!

SUmmer school starting VERY VERY soon . ..hahah Open day also coming!! hahaha. . .

tat's all for now lor. . .Miss ya all ppl!! huggiesZz. . .

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-kimhan-

Holiday??

Woot woot. . holiday?? Why I dun feel like Holiday wan . . so sien . . . . . .

Hmmm, I'm looking forward for these years' Christmas and New Year. Hopefully will have a celebration and ending my year with a BANG!! woot woot. . .

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-kimhan-

General updates. . . .

Wow, It's been a while since I write a long post in my blog di. I think* heee. .

I do not know where to start. . Let me see. . .Hmmmm . . .

Let's start by the exams. The exams are jus killers in Monash. Or not, or even other Unis too! Damn, I now pray for a pass, credit and distintion result!! heee. . hopefully. . .

Holiday? I only have one month! going to attend summer course next month di. Heeee, envy ppl who have 4 months holiday can work and earn money!! : I wish I can tho, but I dowan my timetable so pack next sem so have to take summer lor. Besides next sem I have council to handle! hehehe. . .

October Babies: Happy Birthday To . . . [Follow from earliest to latest]
Grace, Rowena, Chai Ping, Ben Siew, Sue Lynn, Colin, Shereen, Sook Zane, Sin Dru, Sabrina, Jonathan, Eu Jin, and Steffi!!

November Babies: Happy Birthday To. . . [the earliest to latest]
Calvin, Hendra?, Eddy, Yueh Hwei, Michelle, Su Lynn, My sister, Sarah, Jessica, Michelle and Elaine.

Er, had been hanging out with TYew sometimes, Michelle sometimes, Chee Hoe sometimes, Agus going back tho . . Only saw WC and Sue that day [sad:]], Alvin also forgotten me di . . haihs. . . Stacy went to US di. . . Michelle Mc so busy working, Grace back di, Hong Nien dunno MIA di . . hmmm . . . all too busy di . . even shereen also working di, elaine went singapore somemore. . . Huey Sun le busy paktor. . . Lolz, haihs. . sadness. . . :[ Joanna coming back WOOT WOOT!!* Nadia too!! WOOT WOOT!!! MISS ALLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!

Keang Thai, Alex, Calvin, Ben, Chew, Eddy, Jon, Ching, Chen, Dik, Zhen and Colin. . .damn miss u all too wei!!
Cheryl, Kellyn, Joanna, Sher, Dru, CLing, Mel, SLynn, KYee, Cass and etc. . .Miss u all too . .

ALL SJians that I know and know me!! Miss U all wei . !!!woot woot. .
[there are a lot of names, sorry if your name is not stated here tho. But U know I do miss U too rite? lolz]
SPM ppl, GOOD LUCK wei. . . JLyn, Davina and etc etc. . lolz. . .
O well . . . .

Helped my dad with his event that few days. Thanks Chee Hoe, TYew, Michelle and Keegan for your help. Basically helping to shift things up and down only lar. . then got dinner only lor, give out some door gifts. . . and the rest not much di lor. . .heee. .thanks anyway, hope U all enjoyed the dinner tho! :]

Celebrated Michelle Wong's Bday in Italiannese Pyramid. Then went to seat in Republic and have a drink lor. . . thats all. Cheese made a surprised to Michelle. Which also made me 'terharu' lor. . . sniff* heee. . . errr, wat else? o yeah, hope u like ur bday Michelle!! Smiles:]*

Going Langkawi end of these month to work. Going with TYew, Chee Hoe, Keegan, and Jo. Hopefully it's an enjoyable work trip tho!! woot woot. . .

Anyone have part time work?? lol . .find me find me. . .Events the best!!

Miss lots of things and ppl and many many things. . . If I start stating here, it will not end. . . Oh well, I just missed it!!

Here also, I want to say sorry to people who I had hurt!! I'm truly sorry. I just wish things were like before as I reli wan it like before. But, what can I do. . . :[ I jus can't stop crying about it. . .
[Maybe got more emo post after this post? Lolz]

It's not been a very very happy two months for me. It is filled with Ups and downs, mostly downs. . . I had not been sleeping well for almost one month now. . . Not well as in my timing is not right. I had been sleeping in 4, 5s in the morning. Waking up sometime early early in the morning, then sometimes 9, 10s, then sometimes 12. . . I do not like this kind of timing. I'm losing my sleep, my normal sleeping time. . roar. . Well, at times at these wee hours before I sleep, I had shed a few tears. . . Honestly. Sometimes i jus bang my head at the pillow like many times to jus forget bout things, but it doesnt help tho, make me more headache somemore. .roar. . . Hmmm I reli dunno what I can do more? I reli hope and wish it to go away and get over... be it new or go back to before, I want You all back!!! :[

Hmmm. . .look out for more emo post ahead!! Lolz. . .Lazy di now . . . . *still thinking what to write*

O well, that's all for now. . . Ciaoz and hugs ppl!!!

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-kimhan-

Holidayzzz. . .

O well, I know it's holiday and I should be FREE to update my blog. . . Oh well, too lazy lar. . . sorry ooo . . . .

Every nite sleep at 3 am 4 am 5 am . . stoning only . .watching tv, play psp, stone on the bed trying to sleep . . haihs. sadness wei . .

Anyway, I hope my readers will be patient with me and I promise I shall update soon! =)

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-kimhan-

Laziness. . .

Damn lazyyy. . . ROar. . . . .

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-kimhan-

Finally over. . .Blues. . . .

Woot woot, exams are finally over. . .

I can't reli update my blog because I had been helping my dad working for his huge event. He is extremely exhausted and down, I'm really worry about him . . .hmmm . .

O well, nothing to brag about . . Had not been sleeping well for almost A MONTH plus di . . I got ntg to say. Ytd I had hardly slept 4 hours. haihs. . . It's really killing me. . Now look at me, what am I doing man . . haihs. . .

I had so much in mind that I want to pour out. . . SO MUCH . . .but i always have the tendency of stop writing . . . It's too emotional!! I do not know how to continue each time. . I had my eyes teary jus my thinking about it. . and now u know why I hardly sleep . .

I reli hope everything will end soon . . and i missed every single thing that I'm thinking about. . .well. . .that's about it, felt so down to even continue. . .

update soon . . .

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-kimhan-

Exam!!

Srry ppl, can't really update. . . Exam period!! darn!! Finish next month 5th!! So patient ya!!

Wish all Monashian's good luck!! all the best in studies. Especially my friends!!

To other colleges and uni's. . .same to u all!!

till then. . . .

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-kimhan-

Hey ppl

Hey ppl, THANKS for WISHING me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! sorry I can't reli say thank you to each and everyone of U one by one. . so so sorry, but then, THANK YOU!!!! Here I'll say A VERY BIG thank you!!!

Thanks to ppl who sent me smses, who sent frienster msges, and facebook msges. Thank You so much!

Thanks to ppl who rmbered my birthday!!

Thanks to ppl who bought me presents, celebrated with me and even baked caked for me. Thanks to ppl who bought cake for me too. Thanks for being with me in my humble and bored day. Thanks for making my twen-teen birthday memorable! Thanks!Hugs and Kisses.

Here I like to wish all incoming birtday ppl a very happy birthday and may all wishes comes tru!!

*back to exam mood, study study study :[*

hugs

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-kimhan-

Twen-Teen

Happy Birthday!!

I'm Twen-Teen!! Woot woot. . .Still YOUNG!! LOLZ. . .

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-kimhan-

Can't wait

Woot I can't wait till exam is over wei. lolz. Damn, I just can't wait. . .

To all Monashians, my best friends, My friends, My fans, my strangers, my future friends, my gfs, my bfs, my assignment friends, class mates, lecture mates and etc etc etc. . .
Study smart, Study well, Stay healthy. Lets fight the exam till it's over. Woot woot! Good luck in UR studies ppl!! Dun stress up, take a break when U need to!!!

My term of being a welfare officer will start soon. Need to get prepare before the new year. So many things need to sort out. Woot woot. . . .

Summer Course coming. Some people will be going to US to work. Work and travel programme thingy. . . I'm gonna miss them. . . .

Should I or Should I not? So hard to choose. . . . .

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-kimhan-

WhAt m I sUppOsE tO dO?

What am I suppose to do?
I cannot take it anymore. I felt I'm falling each and everytime.
It seems like I cannot do anything tho. . . Hmm. . . Oh well. . .
Things are not what I expected. It's so messy.
Hahaha, let's hope for the best?
Mayb shall stop expecting/dreaming/thinking.
What can I do to mend things? hmmm . .
I really think theres' ntg I can do as it is falling apart.
This? These? That?
Further and further each time.
Life goes on . . .
It makes me feel so low, till my head gonna blow.
For a better and brighter day tmr. . . I hope . .
All I need now is just bring up myself.
Don't worry Be happy. . .
I will be strong, and depend on myself.
Things will be better I'll tell myself. lolz.
I will pull myself together and face the fact.
Oh well, above are kinda random lar. Heeee. . . . Exams are so dead near. . .

I'm scare. . . Lolz. . . My lazy bits keep pulling me back from the books. Damn. Lolz. . .

Oh well, I wish all people happy studying. :)

Anyway, I pray, wish, hope, dream, think and wants the best, the best, and the best!! :)
I MISS U!!
ciaoz

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-kimhan-

iT's TouGh!!

It's definitely TOUGH!! :\
I guess I have to depend on myself?! :(
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-kimhan-

FiNaLLy?

Finally the MRM is done. Although Jo is editing it now. BUT ITS DONE finally. Been in library the whole day though. Credits to Sue and Jo. AS well as Allen. =)

Anyways I'm still in library writing this post. The rest is taking their break and rest in the cafe. I'm sitting here wondering again? Izit suppose to be like this?

I reli reli felt. . . I dunno how to say lar. . . . F'up?

feel damn shitty lar. . . U, U and U?? haihs. I do understand it anymore. . . I reli dunno. . .
I felt like I'm totally nothing. NOTHING?!
I hav done my part. I even doing parts that I am not suppose to do. I'm not complainin, but isn't giving support better than complaining it?I want the support, but what happens is complains on that very chair. I know what is going around me. I know. I pretend like I do not know anything. But somehow it just gets up to my head and heart. I'm reli hurt and down.
Does anyone actually understands me??
Maybe I always had been a disappoinment all these while. . . I reli dunno what else but to say . . . . . . . . . . sorry?
I felt insecure. Yes believe it, even guys have insecure feelings.
O well, that's all for now tho. I really hav no mood to think about it. hav funs. . . .

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-kimhan-

Get well

Get WELL soon!! Rest Well alright!! =)
Heee....

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-kimhan-

IziT sUpPoSe To bE LiKe tiS?

It's been nites since I ever sleep early. Everyday, for this whole week, I had been sleeping at 3 am, 4 am or even 5 am. Why? I love sleep so much, but just can't find the comfort to sleep. Lolz.

Lying down on the sofa, staring at the tv, not concentrating at all but still cannot get sleepy or tired.

Lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling, with and without the lights on, I just struggles everytime I try to sleep. FLip myself to the right, then to the left, the right then left. . . it continues. . .but I just can't sleep. Why?

When I was struggling this whole week, I did MANY, MUCH, INFINITE, DEEP, SERIOUS, thinking. About what? About past, current and future.
I should be studying, or even doing assignment. But somehow, I do not have the 'momentum' to it. Instead, all these THOUGHTS jam my brain. Lolz.

I have many issues including friendship and studies. We can neglect friendship issues as I don't feel like writing it here. :) About studies, Like I said, I should be studying, Finals coming. And YET I'm not being serious in my studies. I tell myself everytime, I have to work hard, I have to work hard, but Laziness just climb over me. I had done my serious thinking. AND I will start serious revision and study from now. Lolz I hope.

Randomness: I do not know how I feel. Every moment I just wish I can see and talk. I miss dearly as its been a while. I hope for the best. I wish it will be the best too. :)
Aaaa, probably I shouldn't be saying it here, but, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!! WOOT WOOT! lolz. Oh well, not 21 yet. But no longer teen. Unless we pronounce it as twen-teen years old. Hahaha, Lame-nya.

Before I end, randoms:

'Frenship r amazing ppl who accept unconditional luv n care. They recognize each others differences. They trust n believe in each other that they opened up their hearts 2share their dreams, tots and fears. They laugh 2gether in hapiness n share each others tears. Frens r blessings 2 be treasure 4eva.'

'Sometimes things arent d way u hoped they would b, tat's when u hav 2tell urself tat things will get better. It may not be easy, but take each step forward s a challenge. Learn from ur difficult times. Grow in courage n in strength. Keep blivin urself. Stay focus on all u wan ur life 2b. Challenges r part of lifes journey tat will only bring u closer 2wat u dream 2b.'

'Life is full of ppl who will make u laugh, cry, smile till ur face hurts, n so happy tat u think u'll burst. But those who leave their footprints on ur soul r the 1s tat keep ur life goin.'

There are many more I have read. But if I continue writing, there won't be any time for me to finish it. Lolz. There are some kept in my phone too. Lolz.

Oh well, things definately so different nowadays. How it changes so fast? I really do not know. But I really hope it change for the better, not worse. :\

That's all for now, Updates soon. Ciaoz.

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-kimhan-

ABBA Collection!!

Woot woot. . . Mamma Mia is a good show, at least for me it is. Because its so. . . how to say ar, cheerful? Happy? Melodi-ish? Lolz, Lolz. . . I knew how to sing half of their songs in the cinema when watching man. Lolz. .
These are the popular songs!!

Mamma Mia

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

I Have A Dream

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Take A Chance On Me

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Dancing Queen

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Money Money Money

abba mp3 - abba videos

Song Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Super Trouper

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Knowing Me Knowing You

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Gimme Gimme Gimme

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Chiquitita

abba mp3 - abba videos

Song Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Lay All Your Love On Me

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

S.O.S

abba mp3 - abba videos

Song Lyrics | Abba lyrics

Honey Honey

abba mp3 - abba videos

Lyrics | Abba lyrics

12 songs here. ABBA has TOO many songs. . lolz. . . But these are the songs that are more well-known, at least to me, and I like. Lolz. Go download the songs and hear!! woot woot.

Oh well, I'm stoning at home. . . Should BE doing assignment or even study for FINALS!! but look wat Am I doing wei. . . Lolz.

O well, that's all for now. Ciaoz!! :]

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-kimhan-

What?! Heee, Wee Hours Update!!

OMG, this is not good, I'm losing my sleep every night. Why why why why why??

O well, since am blogging, I blog a little randomness lar. . lol . .

Sem break is next week!! One week, damn!! Can't see my friens for a week man. Not all of cos but most of it. Damn gonna miss them. Lolz. Altho jus one week. Lolz.

Today's K's Birthday wei. Sorry didn't celebrate with U well. Promise to 'pay' back bro. Alright.

Gonna get stress soon. Exam period coming. Cannot afford to slack di.

Life changes as people changes. Things around changes too as the environment changes. (It's kinda random tho this line, Lolz)

Tmr going futsal with Bryan and his gang. Hopefully can play lar. Dennis ciaoz to Aussie, Miss him man. Used to play futsal with him and Bryan's gang together. Sifu(Andrew), Let's play futsal alright!

Michie Mc, Let the moodiness goes away. Woot Woot. Rmb all the lame jokes. Lolz. SMILE! Hugz. Heeee. . . .

WC, another night, it makes it forth or fifth night in a row. . :[ Bluek, Winkz*

Sue, I was away jus now, finding for food. Sorry. Heee. Sleep well k. Srry. Hugs.

Joanna, Going off soon. Have dinner or a day out b4 you leave la. Alright. Gonna miss U. Hugz.

Tyew, Let's ROCK the futsal on Friday. woot.

Michie W, prob half asleep di, roar. When go Ramadhan Bazaar? October 1st Hari Raya di. . Lolz.

Alvin, Where U MIA di? Editor then forget me di lar? I mean US lar? Heeee.

Chee Hoe, Keegan, Shereen, Miao. . . . lolz

Zen, Train your shots lar. Lolz

Grace, Birthday coming. Happy Bday in Advance. Heeee.

Stacy, Share wit me ok? heeee.

Elaine T, Don't drive so fast k!? Becareful!! Heeee.

Ben Siew's bday coming soon too. Two days difference from me. Lolz. Celebrate together ok?

Miss Primary schoolmates, people like Alice and Pui Yee. Miss College mates(COPOT).

High school mates, Miss You all!! School mates, class mates, football mates, Karate mates, handball mates, volley ball mates, etc. Especially the Gay Clanz.

(Note: Gay Clan SJ consists of people like Keang Thai, Alex, Calvin, Ching Eu, Zhen Linn, Ben, Chen Hwa, Colin, Dik Yang, Jon, Chew, Eddy, and etc)(Girls included in GCSJ: Chee Ling, Mel, Kwan Yee, Rowe, and etc.)

(Classmates from Form 1 to Form 5 Classes especially Baktianz.)

(THE HIGH SCHOOL GAY CLAN SJ)

( 5 Bakti Class)

(College Mates)

(Uni Mates)

(The Fives)

Many more Uni Pict are not uploaded yet. I need time wei. Lolz. Including people like Andrew, Mich Mc, Ben Siew, K, SMILE members, Student Council Members and etc etc. . . .Lolz, coming SOON! ALRight? I only Upload once in a while and when I can't sleep, So you all please pray that I can't sleep. Lolz. NOT!!

Hahaha, I just realise my post DAMN random wei. Lolz. That's what happen if I can't SLEEP.

K lar, I thnk tat's all for now, Enjoy!! Winkz*

(The format is a little messy, I do not know why. Been trying whole night fixing it. Srry for the Inconvenience. Hope u all enjoy.)

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-kimhan-

DoTtty . . .

Heyz. . .

A little short post I shall say here. . . IMC assignment finally over. . MRM assignment 1 Redo finally done. . . IFM assignment 2 due coming Monday MRM assignment 2 due Friday . . .Hopefully there an extention tho. . . .

Well it's been a very stressful week for students in Monash especially Business School. . .Assignments are every now and then, there's no stop to it. . . O well what the heck, Monash Uni life. . . So people, WOOT WOOT. . .work hard. . dun be like me. . lazy bum . .lol . . .

Anyway, been wondering myself again . . How nice if dreams really come true?! lol RIGHT?? lol .
Exams are near, must start to study di . . .weee. . . hopefully. .

IMC MCQ test after the short one week break . . .darn . .

I read these two lines, it's reli meaningful . . .heee. . . . I'll share it wit U!!

'Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!! '

'Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love. '

hmmm, I do not know what to expect or wait for anymore. . .things just right in front of my eyes. . . things happen . . . wat to do wat to do . .??

Every time every nite. . . I just sit there and wonder. . . staring at the ceiling, looking at my phone . . . think back what I have said and done. . Happy and moody, cheerful and miserable. . everything just struck my mind. . . . heee. . . O well, sometimes there's one word to describe it, STONE. . . LOL. . .

I havent been sleeping very well lately. . .Almost everyday after 3 only will be sleepy. But even i'm sleepy, i can't doze off. . .that makes me kinda go into dream land around 4 plus. . .this had been repeating. . . which is really kinda suffereing for me. . . o well, I'll try my best to get on wit it lar. . heeeee *winkz*

That's all, this post suppose to be up a while ago, but because i wasn't able to finish it, that's why i delayed posting up this post. Heeeee now it's up, enjoy. Sorry for the delay*!!

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-kimhan-

FInally...

Wow. . it's reli been a roller coster ride for me these two weeks. . . .

Finally election is over. . . May the best candidates win alrite :)

Well well, it's been reli exhausted, Mind burning, tired, and energy draining. . .I felt sick the other day right before election over. That was my WORST feeling ever as I could not even talk and walk . . .luckily it's gone now. . Will update more later. . .

I'm jus here to say THANK YOU and THank GOD for everything. . I will like to THANK all my besty, T-U, WC, Sue, Michie, Alvin and etc etc, Thanks Smiley, Scrutinizers, campaigners. . . Thank my SIfu . . .Thanks Ben, Thanks Mich Mc . .thanks EVERYONE. . .support or no . .thanks for being there!!!hee. . . Thanks to people who voted and exercised their voting rites in the election, be it voted for me or not, it's ok. . .but thanks. . . It makes the election runs well and finally done. . . Woot woot. . .

Anyway, i'll update later, this is jus a brief post ya. . heeheheh . . .Ciaoz people . . Tiredness. . .Downess. . .

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-kimhan-

Vote Vote. . .

Well, election is coming up though . . heee. . .People go vote and choose wisely!! Every votes count!! Heee. . .

This applies to Monash Students. . . Hee. . the future is in Ur hand!! Woot woot. . :]

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-kimhan-

New . . . .

hmmm . . . Today, and probably few more hours time, it's gonna be September di. I already planned for my September socalled 'resolution'. I'm gonna work hard and catch up all my work man . . studies lar mainly of cos!!. . .damn i am so way bak . .

Today I cleared my table, trying to wipe the inches thick of dust-ball around. . .damn sneezing again . . lol . . it takes me hours to figure how should i arrange my table man. . lol . .yet i had not done arranging my closet and cupboard. . .Not gonna do so soon, but closet i'll. . . PLannin to buy new one tho!!heee. . .

MonashBall was ytd!!woohoo . It was kinda fun for me, as the food was alright as well as the performance. I dun see much performances because i was busy walking around, hanging around with frens, doing my security work (as that's my job for going there), taking pictures and chat chat chat. . lol . .after that went MOS. . WOOHOO. .it's PACKED man . .damn!! there's like TONNES of people. . . lining up!! but with Monash already booked, we had our priorities!! Security team went in and enjoy drinking with the rest of Monashians!! loL . . DAmn cool man . . lol . . Went home reach home around 5 plus. Cos i drank a little too much, thats why unable to drive back so soon . . lol . . luckily not drunk!!lol . .

Well, at least the first stage of assignments and test were over. . .a little disappointed, but what could be done? That' is why i need to bucked up starting from september!! U will now see the nerdy Kimhan HOPEFULLY hahahah. . .

That's all for now larr. .nothing much tho . . . .will update more detailed next!!
ciaoz

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-kimhan-

weee. . .back . .

Hey people, LOL well, it's been kinda emo post for the last almost WHOLE month. . .I decided to go up di . . hee smile smile. . . GOing to be hyper and lame from now on.!!lol . .

Well, for the past post, let's just take it as something that came over to my life. It's been into my life ok? and Its part of my life. . . The most important thing is that I move on with my life. . rite?

For the past few days I'm kinda busy. . working only. . . lol fun working with new people and friends. . lol . . And i found out so many funny and new things like helium gasses, people's weird name, cheering and etc etc. . lol . .so fun lar. . .hope could work with the same atmosphere wei . .can laugh non-stop . .rite Ice Kimo CREW? lol . . . Sejuk SEJUK!!!lol . . .
People involve is like 20 plus people. . i mean those who helped out back stage, registration, phamplets, cheering and etc. . lol . . Well, overall it was FUN!!!! hahah. . .

Oh yeah, Did anyone went into a bar sit down almost one hour without ordering anything and walk out??? LOL!!! People like me, Michelle, Andrew, Elaine, Adam, Melissa, Angie, Navin and Niven did. . lol . .FUNNY man, went into republic, planning to chill. . .after one hour didn't order, end up in MAMAK!!!lol . . .Shisha. . lol . .

Make new friends, fun knowing them. . .hope to see them soon . . heee. . .smile smileee=)) so happy lar me. . .lol . . Learn new words and sentence somemore. . . 10,000, is BELONG TO YOUUUUUU. . . lol . . .

well I was in rush after work. Must finish my IFM assignment. . lol nvr even started yet. . . went home striaght head to comp to finish my assignment. . .total of 7 hours finishing 12 pages. . damn cool rite? . . lol then i kinda screw up my test lar actually cos i didn't read anything. . .

Things around me had been a mixing like ABC. . . There's ups on the right, there's down on the left, there's smile on my back and there's cry in front of me. . .there's bright above, and there's dark below. . .it's kinda random. . Wat i'm trying to say is, it's been EVERYTHING around me. . .heee. . .

Well, this post is kinda not organize larr, because too hyper. .telling Mich some lame jokes and chatting with other frens when i NEED to do my presentation . . lol . .

K lar tat's all for now. .See ya all soon alrite?? Hugs. . .

'.'

-kimhan-

Random mandarin post. . . . =)

A little short post in mandarin. . .for people who dunno how to read, I do not know how to explain!!heee. . . : )

想成為你的專屬，守候在你身旁，看著你，喜怒悲傷想成為你的天使，伴隨在你心裡，守護你，一路歸航 . . . . . .

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人生的光彩在哪裡？
早上醒來，光彩在臉上，充滿笑容的迎接未來。到了中午，光彩在腰上，挺直腰桿的活在當下。到了晚上，光彩在腳上，腳踏實地的做好自己。原來人生也很簡單，只要能懂得「珍惜、知足、感恩」你就擁有了生命的光彩. . . . .

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原來獲得賞識很簡單，養成好習慣就可以了。

原來出人頭地很簡單，吃點虧就可以了。

原來要擁有漂亮很簡單，只要不生氣就可以了。

原來培養孩子很簡單，讓他吃點苦頭就可以了。

原來尋找成功的方法很簡單，從一數到十不要跳過就可以了。

原來保持明亮的方法很簡單，只要常常更換就可以了 。

原來掌握命運的方法很簡單，遠離懶惰就可以了。

原來脫離沉重的負荷很簡單，放棄固執成見就可以了。

原來當天使很簡單，只要實實在在去做就可以了。

原來要變成神很簡單，只要真心付出就可以了。

原來快樂很簡單，擁有少一點就可以了。

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'.'

-kimhan-

Rain . . . . . bow. . . .

It's raining now, it's 940am as I'm at home because class is cancelled. . .

I wonder, when will the rain stop. . . The rain represents dull, sad, moody, sleepy day. . . but without the rain, plants will not grow, flower will not be pretty, land will be dry, people will be craving for water and etc. . . So be happy when there's rain because it might not be good at the outlook, but there's a reasons behind everything. . . . After the rain, sun will shine, rainbow will be bright wil pretty colours, people will be refreshing, work will start, day has come. . . . .

Isn't this best represents life? When a person is facing troubles, obstacle, it's just like the rain as people could not do much during rain outside. But in this obstacles, troubles, moody, sad or whatever, it's part of the life. . . Sun comes out after rain, shows that there is always a brighter day some how. Rainbow comes out which shows that many things could be done for a better life after the rain. By making it meaningful, this rain, currently, makes me think back a lot of issues including current wan. . . But what possibly could I been doing? I wonder. . .

I hope there will be a brighter day soon. . . Life moves on every minutes every seconds. . .As I wish there will be a rainbow for you and for me. . . . I MISS YOU!!!!

Anyways, assignment duing soon di . . OMG, I'm so like LOST?? Well, Trade Finance mid-term test is next week, and IFM assignment due next week too!! Same day which is coming Monday. My goodness. . . . Then this week is Marketing Research assignment due. . damn damn . . I dun even know much to do . . I'll try tho . . heee. . . .

This weekend I'll be working in Pyramid. . Yes, Work AGAIN. . LOl. . .Clarks warehouse sale just finish as it was a fun job to take altho there are so many things to be done. . damn, the crowd in the sale was INSANE!!! Pushing and all. . .LOL . . Well, its over tho!!heee. . . . This week will be working in Pyramid for Daily Fresh, as there will be an event there. Some competition thing, so I'll be there to help out. . . heee. . .$$$$$. . .I NEED MORE!!! lol . . .

Yeah, I think that's all for now. . . Will update more in coming time =)
*am waiting for you every moment, waiting for your msg every time, as I miss U deeply. . . *
Ciaoz. . .

'.'

-kimhan-

Miss U

I MISS YOU EVERY MOMENT I CAN!!

'.'

-kimhan-

'Polluted Air'

SUper RaAnnDoMMM pOosttT. . .

I'm breathing reli hard nowadays . .
Everynight, I'm suffering, trying to breath. . .
I just felt like I'm having 'asma'. . .*touch wood*
I felt like I got strangled. . .
I'm suffocating every moment. .
The air is so 'polluted'. . .
Every day every night, it's in my head my heart. . .
I'm taking every moment deep down inside me. . .
Days are counting. . .
Yet I'm not thinking. . . .
All I'm getting, is just suffering myself. . .
Everything is not anything,
& anything is not everything. . .
Being myself, facing difficult obstacle. . .
I know, I have to face . . .
but. . . . I'm suffocating. . . . . .
help?

:(

'.'

-kimhan-

Starry Starry Night - Don Mclean

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

'.'

-kimhan-

Thought of Nothing. . . .

I'm in the library yet again, I should be in the class right now, but I'm not, cause I do not feel like going. This is a little something from my small little heart, wondering. . . . .

I have the slightless idea what is going on with me nowadays. It's been a week plus for now. My mind just playing games with me. I had difficulties. I thought and think and wonder, I really do not know how to deal with it. Sometimes I just want to give up everything, fly to somewhere else, and just relax for one second of my thought.

I had been thinking a lot. I really hope that things will go well. Whenever I see other people, other couples, I see them smiling and whispering to each other. I felt so happy for them as they could live happily just like that. I'm so jealous. I know, exterior it might be very close and friendly or so, but inside there's story behind it. I totally understand, but what I see is, there's something for them to bring them through their relationship. They are walking on a journey TOGETHER. I really envy them. Who should I share my journey with? Who will walk with me?

I have many best and close friends. I really cherish them a lot. I have many other friends that had been and still in my life. I will not forget them, no matter how long how far they are. But this, you are SO close to me, I nearly held your hand and ask for a given chance and forgiveness. I nearly want to hug you because I miss you so much. I nearly look into your eys and cry for joy because you are standing infront of me. I nearly want to bring you away somewhere only two of us, that I could tell you that three big words. . . . But what's the result? I didn't.

This is because I do not know and clear of what was going on. Things changes drastically. I really want to know what is in your thought. I miss you every moment I can. I care every moment I can. But I realise, it's drifting apart. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second, I wish you are beside me. Looking at me with that little bright smile of yours, giving me the look of you are belonging to me, I will be satisfy. Giving me the chance to walk with you in the journey of life. Letting me share with you times of ups and downs. Could I? I really have no idea what else I can do. Your thoughts, just hard to predict. I wish I COULD!!and I really want to!!

It's enough for this post, I have much to say, but my words are due. My time is limited as I have my studies to worry about. I do not know whether you read my post or not, it's not my decision to make. I hope you could read and hopefully you understand it one day. I hope everything will change to a better chapter for me.

Well that's all for now people. A little emo, but yeah, readers, enjoy my deep thoughts.

Ciaoz I MISS YOU!!

*heartz*

'.'

-kimhan-

......

I'm in the library now, trying to do my assignment as I'm waiting for my class to come. . . . ..

Well, I'm wondering, is 'it' the one? Will I succeed? Everytime I just don't wanna think about it, but it just makes me more curious everytime. I'm wondering and wondering. . . How should I deal with it? What should I do? How can I do? and when is the RIGHT time?? My feeling jus ups and downs, I really lost in mid air, do not know which direction should I go. I can't get hold of myself. I always hope for the better. I always wants it better. I want to improve. . . I hope I can. . .but what can I do. . .there's no result. . .no ntg. . . .what's the thought?????

hmmm. . . . I miss the time. . . I miss 'it' . . . I miss u!!

Well, i dun wanna say more, i'm going to continue my work . . . .TTYL again ya!! :)

'.'

-kimhan-

Weee~

Hmmm, at this hour, what am I doing again? Lol. . . . A little randomness. . .heee. . .

Well, I had been cracking my head for the IMC assignment, now I really do not know how to continue, as I have nutz idea anymore. I think I'll leave it aside though. . . . .hehehehe. . Will be carrying on to try to do my Trade finance tut work. . . After that will start my IFM assignment. . .

Well You all must be wondering I'm crazy, rather do hw than sleep . .lol . .YEA i'm crazy!! Cos i CAN'T SLEEP. . .heeee. . . .

It's been a very moody, sad day for me today. Everything just don't go right. . . I do not know how to deal with it anymore. I rather keeping myself busy than thinking of it. I'm tired, I'm reli tired. What do I deserve more? I'm not asking extra. . .Simple will do . . It's hard for me to cope. . .I'm panicking, I'm lost. . . How how HOW???Eesh . . . .

hmmm. . . now heading back under the light and continue the hard work . . :)

I miss . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

ttyl!

'.'

-kimhan-

Down and Under. . . .

WARNING: Most might not understand the purpose of this, Please be patient. :)

How should I start. After reading, After reasoning it out, After deep thinking, After waiting. . . What was ALL that ABOUT?

I guess I never be as good, as correct, as perfect. Whatever I done, or whatever I did not do, it seems ok at the start, but it turn out bad to worse later on. I do not know how to deal with it. I really do not know. I am not expecting a apology, or a thank you, or anything but expecting things will be better. I know I'm no good in words, so that is why I do not know how to say much but the same thing. Everyone has the past. I have my bitter past. I always look for a brighter day. Maybe you are right. Maybe I'm just stupid enough to think more. It is always hard for me to type posts like these. Most of the time, I really do not know what do I want to say more but just putting my heart there and let everyone see once and for all.

I'm not blaming, I'm not sulking, I'm not angry. I'm just filled with regrets, disappointment, sadness and I do not know what else. Argh. I really do not know how to say on. My fingers are trembling. My heart is just, sinking. By reading the words, the messages, the sentences typed in blog or sms, how could I ever bring myself up? Reading it makes me even sad. I know I do not understand sometimes, Maybe my words hurt sometimes I'm sorry. But I TOO have feelings. Things you do, how you dealing with it, how you telling it expressing it to me, how you typed it, how could I ever forget? Why am I reacting such? Maybe because. . . . .

Because I CARE . . . .

endz~

'.'

-kimhan-

Learned . . .

From my last post, U can see that I talk a little about the drama series I watch. . . Well, from that, I realise something tat a life might face . . .

Life is Precious.

As time passes,

It will never turn back.

You only live once ONCE.

Cherish life with all.

Be it good, or bad,

Make life the priority.

We never know what will happen,

Even for the very next second you are living.

Who will be able to know?

Loves need sacrifice.

Be it positive or negative.

As long as you do not betray.

Make the love meaningful.

Not make it worse by having affair.

Once know there is,

It will never be glued together again.

Truth always hurt,

But it always the best way to gain.

So choose.

....

Well this post suppose to be up few days ago, but due to my stupid internet connection, I can't even log in. . .heee. . . so i had forgotten half of my 'inspiration' and words to put it into this blog. . .

anyways that's all for now, try and grab the drama and watch. It is a 40 epi drama!! =)

'.'

-kimhan-

wow. . .

hahaha. . . I dun think anyone will expected me to blog in this wee hour rite?lol . . .

If you wander off to far,
My love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
Lost and all alone.
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.

If the bright light blind your eyes,
My love will get you home.
If your trouble break strive,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
Lost and all alone.
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed,
My love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame,
My love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself,
Lost and all alone.
Get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home. . . . .

'HEART of GREED', finally finish . . .

My eyes were wet throughout the series. I'm REALLY touched with the series.

Love, Hate, Argue, Quarrel, Dead. . . . etc. . . damn . . .

I dunno whether u all know wat i'm talking, but i'm reli reli touched by the series. . I dunno how to say tho . . .

Tmr my class is at nine morning, and YET i'm not asleep. . .Hero rite me?Hee. . . . so cold. . . =)

k lar, logging off now at 4.51 am. . hehehe. . ciaoz. . miss ya!!=)

'.'

-kimhan-

Dotz. . .

I CAN'T SLEEP!!!! And this is what I do!!! Hate my internet connection . . . . . DOtz. . . .

Arghhh. . . .

'.'

-kimhan-

Mika - Happy Ending

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love[repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

'.'

-kimhan-

Muse - Time is Running Out

I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

You will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

'.'

-kimhan-

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch closer dear
and I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!

'.'

-kimhan-

Can Hardly Breath . . .

Well well . . hmmm a little emo post. . but let me update a bit lar ok??hehehe. . .

WC bday just past. I hope she enjoyed her bday as Sue did most of the planning by herself just to make a special day for WC. She got her multi-choices of cakes, her ever wanter skin food box, her cute little pen skin, her dream of watching high school musical and so. . . She wasn't aware her surronding but in the end, she was surprised because we organized a small surprised meeting in the room. . . she drop her tears finally due to the emotional surprise meeting/party . . heheh . . Well here, i just wanna wish u a VERY GREAT year ahead. . .since ur 20 now, no more a teen, u will forever be remembered by me!! =) by us lar in general . .heheh . .

I know u for the third year now if am not mistaken, and our days were ups and downs. . . U turn to me when there's probs, as i turn to u when i facing some too!! we understand each another well enough that to a certain extend ppl misunderstand us as a couple. . .but it's ok because u are one that i will not forget, one who had left footprints in my life. . . Friendship nvr end!!=) Hugs WC. . . =)

Well, that's for the update of WC's bday, carry on to the Dark Knight. . . Well the story at first was a little confusing, but towards the end, the actions and things acted inside that movie caught my attention. . .but eventually, there's ntg much of a story to me. . sorry to say to all the Dark Knight fans. . hehehe. . . . WEnt watch with tee yew, Wc, Sue and Michie. . .=) ate Pork Burger in Kim Gary, yum yum, then went Uni for meeting and classes. . . hehehe. . .

Hmm, well, it's another rather emo feeling i'm having. . I just dun understand. . or shall i say i CAN'T understand sometimes. . . Life is so full of ups and downs and so and so . . i know. .i HEARD i understand. . .but then how come it's jus so confusing? Lifes is just unpredictable. . . Love, Friends, Relationships, Studies, Work, Finance, etc. . . . . hmmm . .just full of question marks and curiousity . .

I know i shall face it with courage. . i know. . . But i just dun get it. . . u know? When there's possibilities, it always turn out not working. . . When there's no hope and light, something eventually happen . . Is jus tat if u wan thing to happen, it won't happen. . . If u wan things not to happen, it eventually happen . . In the end, everything turns out WRONG or disaster. . .haihs haihs haihs. . .

Well it's rather random post, so PLEASE dun ask me wat happen. . . I can tell U, all this random post comes in when i stone in the room . .sitting down doing ntg and start DREAMing and THINKing a lot of stuffs. . . past present future. . all fit into my randomness. . .tat's why u could see my randomness sometimes. . .

Love is just hard to predict, Relationship even harder to accomodate. . .haihs. . . . How i hope i could have a great wan . . .

Friendship is suppose to be rainbow. . all kind of different colours. . .but between these colours, there's always a barrier to differentiate the difference. . . hmm . . how come. . . Some ppl jus dun get their friendship smooth . . . . some just happen . . hmmm. . how i wish mine will last forever. . .

Studies had nvr been easy for me. I personally likes sports, outdoor, events. . . . I always wanted to be at my best, but blame who for not doing it properly? Myself of cos, who else can I say it to . . it's my own work and responsibility. . . so. . .

Well, now wat i learn is, cherish every moment of life, cherish everyone that is by ur side, live happily and with no regrets. . . .

hmmm, i guess tat's all for my post lar, gonna do my homework now. Yet do start yet, slept throughout the evening just now. . lol . .lazy rite? i know. . Ciaoz ppl . . hugs.

'.'

-kimhan-

Randomness. . .

Well, another random post. . .hehehe. . .

Hmm, not a story, but then is just what i have been thinking in my mind. . . Why do I deserve things happening like that? In here, i won't specifically say what had happen and what's happening, but then yeah, I sometimes get's very 'tu-lan' for certain occasion. . . . I just dun understand. . . Maybe different personality, character, situation, feeling. . . Or izit just not so important after all?? All of you must be wondering what the hell i'm talking about, but then i reli dunno how to say it here. . .it's a reli reli reli upset-ing feeling for me. . . Bare in mind, I reli never get extreme upset before, but if I do, better run far far, because is just like volcano erupt till non stop and can done damages. . . damn random i know. . lol . . . that's why it is a random post. . . . . .

Well another one is, I reli dun understand. . how does it work. Izit me or izit ME?? I felt reli hopeless at time as things just do not go well. I felt so useless as things makes me wonder. . . I kept thinking about absolute nothing but one. . . What is THAT all about? What should I do? What is the THOUGHT? How should I know and understand? how can I get better if I dunno? Izit am total un-important? I'm reli speechless at times. . . All I get is ntg ntg ntg. . . all i get is nooo noooo noooo. . . Avoiding? CHanging? WHY???? =[ Total downnnnn. . . . . . .

THat's all for now. . dunno what to say di . . =] he he. . . . randomness ends. . .

to be continue. . .

'.'

-kimhan-